The concept of time...

Time. How soon is too soon? How late is too late? Each person will have a different opinion about the appropriate time interval between major life occurrences. Over the past two years, time has been of the essence. I have been struggling with issues of timing. Is it too soon for my ex-husband to be getting married again? If I asked him, he would obviously say no, because that is exactly what he is preparing to do. It makes me wonder if anyone has brought this to his attention? Did anyone say, "K , isn't it a little soon?" or, "There hasn't been enough time since the divorce." Regardless, I hope he is dedicated to giving her what he couldn't give to me. Is it too soon for me to be dating seriously? At what point was it too late to save my marriage?

On Wednesday it will be two years since my dad died. Two years? Think of all the things that have changed for me. That day is the beginning of the end for me and the life that I once knew. From that point on, my identity has been challenged in ways that I never knew were possible. I lost a father, a husband, a host of friends that joined "Team K", I lost in laws, nieces/nephews, personal belongings, hopes and dreams. Despite all of the loses, I never lost myself or the vision of the life that I hope to have one day. Which brings me back to the question of time. I don't think anyone can put a timeline on life or the events that will occur. Everyone will always have an opinion on proper timing. What is too soon for one may be too late for another. I guess the goal is to feel comfortable with the choices we make. They are made in an exact moment of time that will never be replayed, no matter how much we hope they would.